1 00:01:26,609 --> 00:01:30,076 We're at Verity Crawford, in the Vermont 2 00:01:30,276 --> 00:01:33,367 Where she lives with her husband, and their twins. 3 00:01:33,567 --> 00:01:35,857 I'm going to run out of superlatives 4 00:01:36,057 --> 00:01:38,077 to describe her. Here goes: 5 00:01:38,277 --> 00:01:40,538 phenomenon, sensation, 6 00:01:40,738 --> 00:01:42,268 wonder, 7 00:01:42,268 --> 00:01:44,790 others would say she rocks, I'll go with that. 8 00:01:45,490 --> 00:01:49,530 You are considered one of the best-selling authors on the planet. 9 00:01:50,330 --> 00:01:51,910 Let's take that in for just a second. 10 00:01:52,530 --> 00:01:55,530 On the planet, have you had time to take it all in? 11 00:01:55,650 --> 00:02:00,770 What it is like to be able to provide such a beautiful life for the people you love so much? 12 00:02:01,050 --> 00:02:03,710 To me, it's all a miracle. 13 00:02:04,190 --> 00:02:07,789 Yeah, but some could say it's a miracle built on villains. 14 00:02:58,950 --> 00:03:01,610 Like he's been waiting for me longer than he should have. 15 00:03:02,210 --> 00:03:04,070 Makes me second-guess my assumptions. 16 00:03:05,190 --> 00:03:08,630 I try to imagine a serial killer named Louis Longstetter. 17 00:03:09,990 --> 00:03:20,250 I almost laugh at the absurdity of it, but being a woman about to embark on weeks of isolation, the thought that he could be a threat sticks in my mind, unwanted 18 00:03:20,250 --> 00:03:21,150 and uncomfortable. 19 00:03:24,450 --> 00:03:25,010 It's time. 20 00:03:26,070 --> 00:03:26,510 I'm sorry. 21 00:03:27,150 --> 00:03:27,390 Hi. 22 00:03:27,950 --> 00:03:28,730 You're not in a bookstore. 23 00:03:29,470 --> 00:03:29,710 Yeah. 24 00:03:29,990 --> 00:03:30,970 Yeah, no, this is a good time. 25 00:03:33,930 --> 00:03:34,370 Hey. 26 00:03:34,830 --> 00:03:35,690 Hey, how'd it go? 27 00:03:36,190 --> 00:03:37,850 I don't want to talk about it. 28 00:03:37,910 --> 00:03:38,390 Where were you? 29 00:03:38,430 --> 00:03:39,430 You said you were going to be here. 30 00:03:39,430 --> 00:03:42,290 You know, I would have missed it if I didn't have a good reason. 31 00:03:43,170 --> 00:03:44,570 I sent bug group calls. 32 00:03:45,410 --> 00:03:46,190 They want to meet you. 33 00:03:46,610 --> 00:03:47,110 For what? 34 00:03:47,430 --> 00:03:48,930 Who wants to meet me? 35 00:03:49,370 --> 00:03:51,790 I would say it's all very top secret. 36 00:03:52,910 --> 00:03:53,330 When? 37 00:03:53,890 --> 00:03:55,010 3 p.m. Sharp. 38 00:03:55,770 --> 00:03:56,750 I'll meet you there, okay? 39 00:03:57,070 --> 00:03:58,450 Oh, please, and dress nice. 40 00:03:59,110 --> 00:03:59,410 All right? 41 00:03:59,410 --> 00:03:59,950 All right. 42 00:04:00,430 --> 00:04:01,690 Wait, Cory. 43 00:04:04,070 --> 00:04:04,910 Wow. 44 00:04:17,829 --> 00:04:20,550 Like me, belong in overpopulated cities. 45 00:04:21,710 --> 00:04:27,500 Tiny town where I grew up. 46 00:05:15,240 --> 00:05:16,260 I'm not going to sleep with you. 47 00:05:27,300 --> 00:05:28,240 Is it on my face? 48 00:05:31,630 --> 00:05:33,670 There should be bathroom in this top shop over here, okay? 49 00:05:42,220 --> 00:05:45,840 Hey, what are you doing? 50 00:05:46,340 --> 00:05:47,080 I'm ready to go. 51 00:05:48,160 --> 00:05:49,413 Here, 52 00:06:12,050 --> 00:06:13,270 um, let me put this on. 53 00:06:22,720 --> 00:06:27,160 I can't tell if you're calm or if you're in shock. 54 00:06:29,640 --> 00:06:31,100 I don't know what I am. 55 00:06:36,000 --> 00:06:36,840 Are you okay? 56 00:06:38,340 --> 00:06:38,940 Yeah. 57 00:06:40,380 --> 00:06:41,960 I've seen worse, unfortunately. 58 00:06:43,980 --> 00:06:45,160 Are you a doctor? 59 00:06:46,820 --> 00:06:47,980 I'm in real estate. 60 00:06:51,400 --> 00:06:52,820 Or at least I used to be. 61 00:06:55,760 --> 00:06:56,860 What happened to you? 62 00:06:59,840 --> 00:07:00,960 Do you really want to know? 63 00:07:07,610 --> 00:07:11,010 I pulled my eight-year-old daughter's body out of a lake last spring. 64 00:07:18,290 --> 00:07:18,770 Sorry. 65 00:07:25,720 --> 00:07:27,300 My mom died last week. 66 00:07:29,100 --> 00:07:29,580 Oh. 67 00:07:30,400 --> 00:07:31,380 What happened to her? 68 00:07:32,280 --> 00:07:32,880 Uh, cancer. 69 00:07:33,500 --> 00:07:35,580 I was taking care of her in my apartment. 70 00:07:36,340 --> 00:07:38,140 She died in there, in my apartment. 71 00:07:38,580 --> 00:07:38,940 She died. 72 00:07:39,720 --> 00:07:39,960 Sorry. 73 00:07:43,260 --> 00:07:43,860 I have a meeting. 74 00:07:44,080 --> 00:07:44,620 I should... 75 00:07:44,620 --> 00:07:45,900 Yeah, me too. 76 00:07:47,360 --> 00:07:48,580 Thank you for your help. 77 00:07:48,920 --> 00:07:49,200 Of course. 78 00:07:56,260 --> 00:07:57,480 I'm Jeremy, by the way. 79 00:07:58,300 --> 00:07:58,800 Love it. 80 00:08:32,260 --> 00:08:32,940 How can I help you? 81 00:08:33,179 --> 00:08:34,440 I'm here to see Amanda Thomas. 82 00:08:35,000 --> 00:08:38,220 Hi, I'm sorry I'm late. 83 00:08:38,340 --> 00:08:38,919 You're not late. 84 00:08:39,159 --> 00:08:39,760 You're on time. 85 00:08:41,539 --> 00:08:45,160 The actual meeting isn't until 3.30, but I'm sorry to be late. 86 00:08:45,420 --> 00:08:46,720 I told you to hurry. 87 00:08:47,440 --> 00:08:47,740 Sorry. 88 00:08:48,920 --> 00:08:50,540 If you had told me that, I could have... 89 00:08:50,540 --> 00:08:51,220 What are you wearing? 90 00:08:54,560 --> 00:08:56,560 Uh, it's like a fashion thing. 91 00:08:56,760 --> 00:08:59,100 Cory, Lauren, I'm Amanda's assistant. 92 00:08:59,360 --> 00:08:59,640 I'll be out. 93 00:09:00,760 --> 00:09:01,380 Thank you. 94 00:09:01,460 --> 00:09:02,600 I'll show you to the conference room. 95 00:09:07,530 --> 00:09:08,010 Lauren? 96 00:09:29,150 --> 00:09:30,830 I'm not sure I'd order to take a look. 97 00:09:30,830 --> 00:09:32,770 I don't need a lawyer. 98 00:09:33,330 --> 00:09:35,290 All she left me was duh. 99 00:09:36,650 --> 00:09:37,130 Showtime. 100 00:09:37,630 --> 00:09:38,130 Right, sorry. 101 00:09:40,930 --> 00:09:41,410 Oh. 102 00:09:41,410 --> 00:09:43,350 You must be Lauren Ashley. 103 00:09:43,590 --> 00:09:46,270 I am Amanda Thomas, senior editor here at Hatchet. 104 00:09:46,430 --> 00:09:46,670 Lauren. 105 00:09:46,850 --> 00:09:47,510 Nice to see you. 106 00:09:47,850 --> 00:09:48,070 Lauren. 107 00:09:48,230 --> 00:09:51,350 This is Beryl Stevens, our lawyer, and Jeremy Crawford, our client. 108 00:09:55,680 --> 00:09:56,600 Please, have a seat. 109 00:10:03,890 --> 00:10:05,390 So, I'll just cut to the chase. 110 00:10:06,050 --> 00:10:11,190 One of our authors is unable to fulfill a contract due to extenuating circumstances. 111 00:10:11,630 --> 00:10:15,050 We are in search of a writer who has experience with the same genre. 112 00:10:15,710 --> 00:10:16,590 She needs a little help. 113 00:10:17,430 --> 00:10:20,470 Before we continue, I would ask that you sign the non-disclosure agreement. 114 00:10:21,350 --> 00:10:23,950 We would like to keep our author's current situation out of the media. 115 00:10:34,910 --> 00:10:35,550 Thank you. 116 00:10:38,150 --> 00:10:39,190 Thank you. 117 00:10:43,790 --> 00:10:46,010 Verity Crawford is her name. 118 00:10:46,790 --> 00:10:48,510 I'm sure you're familiar with her work. 119 00:10:50,130 --> 00:10:56,590 Verity has a wildly successful series, The Noble Virtues, which we would hate to see go unfinished. 120 00:10:57,330 --> 00:11:00,690 We need a writer who's able to step in and accelerate a timeline. 121 00:11:01,110 --> 00:11:02,310 So, when will you need her back? 122 00:11:02,310 --> 00:11:03,810 We're already behind. 123 00:11:03,950 --> 00:11:09,510 So, we're looking to have the next book in the series within six months and the final two in the next 24 months. 124 00:11:10,110 --> 00:11:11,050 Three books. 125 00:11:12,270 --> 00:11:14,290 75,000 per book. 126 00:11:17,150 --> 00:11:18,910 So, how does this sound, Lauren? 127 00:11:26,480 --> 00:11:28,100 I appreciate the offer. 128 00:11:29,840 --> 00:11:32,980 I don't know that I can write for another author. 129 00:11:32,980 --> 00:11:37,480 I'm especially someone as popular as Verity Crawford. 130 00:11:38,560 --> 00:11:40,580 Her fans know her voice. 131 00:11:41,980 --> 00:11:43,600 They would know it's not her. 132 00:11:45,600 --> 00:11:46,360 I'm sorry. 133 00:11:47,460 --> 00:11:48,520 Let me talk to my client. 134 00:11:50,460 --> 00:11:51,400 We'll step out. 135 00:11:52,540 --> 00:11:56,120 We have two other writers in mind, so if you can let us know something by tomorrow afternoon. 136 00:11:57,160 --> 00:11:58,780 We'll discuss, all right? 137 00:11:59,080 --> 00:11:59,660 Thank you. 138 00:11:59,660 --> 00:12:09,640 Can we possibly have a word 139 00:12:09,640 --> 00:12:10,040 in private? 140 00:12:17,520 --> 00:12:17,840 Sure. 141 00:12:19,620 --> 00:12:20,440 Got it. 142 00:12:25,800 --> 00:12:26,660 Are you okay? 143 00:12:27,880 --> 00:12:29,800 20 minutes ago, you watched someone die. 144 00:12:31,940 --> 00:12:32,860 So, did you? 145 00:12:33,820 --> 00:12:36,100 Like I said, I've seen worse. 146 00:12:39,190 --> 00:12:40,950 You must have questions. 147 00:12:41,830 --> 00:12:42,430 Sure do. 148 00:12:43,570 --> 00:12:43,890 Shoot. 149 00:12:44,390 --> 00:12:50,790 Okay, well, for starters, did you go shopping or do you carry around spare shirts in your pocket? 150 00:12:54,480 --> 00:12:55,780 My hotel's just around the corner. 151 00:12:56,620 --> 00:12:57,720 I went back and got changed. 152 00:12:58,940 --> 00:13:01,140 Why can't your wife finish the series? 153 00:13:03,900 --> 00:13:04,900 Verity had a car accident. 154 00:13:08,770 --> 00:13:09,530 I'm sorry. 155 00:13:13,040 --> 00:13:13,760 Open-ended. 156 00:13:16,850 --> 00:13:18,590 It was one of Verity's favorite books last year. 157 00:13:21,780 --> 00:13:22,980 She read one of my books? 158 00:13:22,980 --> 00:13:23,500 Yeah. 159 00:13:27,740 --> 00:13:33,100 She said that you are a brilliant, undiscovered voice. 160 00:13:34,060 --> 00:13:36,040 I'm not undiscovered. 161 00:13:36,180 --> 00:13:37,300 I am published. 162 00:13:37,480 --> 00:13:38,400 I'm just not in a big way. 163 00:13:39,900 --> 00:13:44,960 If anyone was to take over her series, I want it to be someone whose work she respected. 164 00:13:46,180 --> 00:13:49,740 You would have spent some time at the house, in an office. 165 00:13:49,740 --> 00:13:55,140 She has years of notes and outlines, stuff I would not make sense of. 166 00:13:57,180 --> 00:13:58,820 Also, they're low-balling you. 167 00:13:59,760 --> 00:14:02,680 You should ask your agent to ask for half a million. 168 00:14:06,310 --> 00:14:07,030 We live in Vermont. 169 00:14:07,710 --> 00:14:09,430 You can stay for as long as you need to. 170 00:14:10,810 --> 00:14:12,010 I hope you change your mind. 171 00:14:12,290 --> 00:14:12,570 Wait. 172 00:14:13,830 --> 00:14:16,730 Did you know who I was earlier? 173 00:14:19,050 --> 00:14:20,290 Not until you said your name. 174 00:14:21,770 --> 00:14:23,310 Aren't there many low-ends running around? 175 00:14:25,790 --> 00:14:27,950 If you do come, bring my shirt back. 176 00:14:33,420 --> 00:14:35,280 Verity, welcome to Call for Daddy. 177 00:14:35,800 --> 00:14:39,040 Who doesn't love a dirty, twisted thriller? 178 00:14:40,080 --> 00:14:41,860 Uh, maybe just my husband. 179 00:14:43,200 --> 00:14:49,180 Oh, is it hard for him to read your work and then sleep next to you at night? 180 00:14:49,360 --> 00:14:52,700 Uh, I mean, your characters are pretty evil. 181 00:14:52,700 --> 00:15:00,220 Yeah, well, um, um, he was wondering if I was, like, the sociopath that was doing it. 182 00:15:00,500 --> 00:15:01,940 And I think he was maybe just checking. 183 00:15:02,400 --> 00:15:03,060 For sure. 184 00:15:03,120 --> 00:15:05,320 It's just, like, let's just, I just, you know. 185 00:16:03,310 --> 00:16:04,710 Hope I'm not intruding. 186 00:16:05,790 --> 00:16:07,810 I'm here to celebrate your new gig. 187 00:16:12,080 --> 00:16:12,660 Okay. 188 00:16:14,040 --> 00:16:15,740 I can't live here anymore. 189 00:16:17,180 --> 00:16:22,860 I'm also getting evicted, so it all works out. 190 00:16:24,360 --> 00:16:30,400 Well, maybe with the money you'll get from this deal, you'll finally get a cover for that futon. 191 00:16:31,160 --> 00:16:33,300 Excuse me, that is not a futon. 192 00:16:33,400 --> 00:16:34,100 It's a mattress. 193 00:16:36,460 --> 00:16:37,600 Let's toast, yeah? 194 00:16:41,020 --> 00:16:44,740 I can't believe you're staying at the house. 195 00:16:46,180 --> 00:16:51,660 There's, like, years worth of notes and outlines that somebody needs to sort out. 196 00:16:51,660 --> 00:16:52,540 You don't need to know them. 197 00:16:55,430 --> 00:16:57,610 All I'm saying is that you have to be safe. 198 00:17:07,520 --> 00:17:07,839 Saves? 199 00:17:13,280 --> 00:17:15,000 Have you even read one of her books? 200 00:17:15,680 --> 00:17:18,180 I don't read books that you can buy in an airplane. 201 00:17:19,500 --> 00:17:22,500 I'm afraid I'll like it and then I won't be able to remember her. 202 00:17:23,460 --> 00:17:25,140 Don't be fooled by her success. 203 00:17:26,160 --> 00:17:27,800 She's very, very dark. 204 00:17:28,920 --> 00:17:29,620 Like you. 205 00:17:33,770 --> 00:17:34,610 How's Becca? 206 00:17:36,330 --> 00:17:37,330 Who's Becca? 207 00:17:38,170 --> 00:17:40,950 There's pictures of you guys all over Instagram. 208 00:17:41,710 --> 00:17:42,830 It's just a fling. 209 00:17:43,910 --> 00:17:45,870 She looks sweet. 210 00:17:47,570 --> 00:17:49,830 You should take that seriously. 211 00:18:02,040 --> 00:18:02,800 Okay. 212 00:18:05,360 --> 00:18:07,500 I'm happy for you all. 213 00:18:09,460 --> 00:18:10,600 He deserves it. 214 00:18:18,420 --> 00:18:22,500 I reach the door, push it open without knocking. 215 00:18:24,040 --> 00:18:26,360 I smell the blood before I see it. 216 00:18:27,140 --> 00:18:31,820 Blame is hunched over, the knife stuck under his chin. 217 00:18:32,540 --> 00:18:37,400 A steady flow of crimson seeps through his knuckles, pours down his arm. 218 00:18:38,540 --> 00:18:42,400 He reaches out to me, desperate for my help. 219 00:18:43,220 --> 00:18:49,020 I meet him halfway and use my palm to push the knife in deeper. 220 00:18:50,240 --> 00:18:55,540 I stare into his eyes, wanting him to know how much I enjoy this. 221 00:19:35,170 --> 00:19:36,250 Hey, you made it. 222 00:19:36,710 --> 00:19:37,150 Hi. 223 00:19:37,750 --> 00:19:39,610 Uh, a little sooner than expected. 224 00:19:40,130 --> 00:19:40,570 Sorry. 225 00:19:41,250 --> 00:19:42,730 No, no, no, no. 226 00:19:42,950 --> 00:19:43,790 It's totally fine. 227 00:19:44,890 --> 00:19:46,510 This is who I was talking about, buddy. 228 00:19:48,970 --> 00:19:49,850 I'm Loan. 229 00:19:50,690 --> 00:19:51,570 What's your name? 230 00:19:52,170 --> 00:19:52,770 Hi, crew. 231 00:19:55,870 --> 00:19:56,690 He's so cute. 232 00:19:57,810 --> 00:19:58,490 He's a little shy. 233 00:19:59,610 --> 00:20:00,430 That's okay. 234 00:20:01,850 --> 00:20:03,010 I'm a little shy too. 235 00:20:04,130 --> 00:20:05,290 Come on, let me take you back. 236 00:20:07,270 --> 00:20:07,870 Of course. 237 00:20:47,930 --> 00:20:48,970 Pretty amazing, huh? 238 00:20:51,230 --> 00:20:51,910 Is that a field? 239 00:20:53,950 --> 00:20:54,710 It's a lake. 240 00:21:03,240 --> 00:21:04,140 Marie, you must be. 241 00:21:04,340 --> 00:21:05,900 It's such a long drive from the city. 242 00:21:07,000 --> 00:21:09,980 Crew and I are having PBJs and sliced apples if you want some. 243 00:21:10,780 --> 00:21:11,700 I'm sure we can rustle up some. 244 00:21:12,300 --> 00:21:14,000 I'm okay, thank you. 245 00:21:14,160 --> 00:21:14,360 Yeah? 246 00:21:15,360 --> 00:21:18,240 Okay, well, bridge is fully stocked if you want anything. 247 00:21:18,240 --> 00:21:19,320 Just help yourself. 248 00:21:20,080 --> 00:21:21,140 Can I go see mommy? 249 00:21:21,760 --> 00:21:22,260 Of course, buddy. 250 00:21:22,540 --> 00:21:23,820 Just go talk to Anna first, all right? 251 00:21:29,100 --> 00:21:30,180 You get the main bedroom. 252 00:21:30,680 --> 00:21:31,620 I hope you don't mind. 253 00:21:32,660 --> 00:21:34,340 We all sleep upstairs now. 254 00:21:34,560 --> 00:21:39,420 So we just thought that this room would be best because it's closest to Barry's office, which is just right down there. 255 00:21:43,240 --> 00:21:44,220 Bathroom is all yours. 256 00:21:44,760 --> 00:21:48,580 There should be toiletries in there, but if there isn't, just let me know and we can get whatever you need. 257 00:21:53,040 --> 00:21:54,440 Wow, thank you. 258 00:21:57,800 --> 00:22:00,360 So do you want some time to just, like, get settled? 259 00:22:00,720 --> 00:22:02,700 Or do you want me to show you the office? 260 00:22:10,510 --> 00:22:11,370 The office. 261 00:22:17,580 --> 00:22:21,160 She saved everything on her computer, in boxes. 262 00:22:21,800 --> 00:22:23,140 There's no order to it, though. 263 00:22:23,940 --> 00:22:25,200 She wasn't the most organized person. 264 00:22:26,400 --> 00:22:27,480 Most writers aren't. 265 00:22:30,480 --> 00:22:31,020 Wow. 266 00:22:48,450 --> 00:22:49,690 Which one is your favorite? 267 00:22:51,590 --> 00:22:53,630 I want to say I haven't read any of them since the first one. 268 00:22:54,630 --> 00:22:55,750 I didn't like either head. 269 00:22:56,950 --> 00:22:58,150 Can I meet her? 270 00:23:14,470 --> 00:23:17,030 This is Lo and Ashley, the author I was telling you about. 271 00:23:17,390 --> 00:23:17,690 Hi, crew. 272 00:23:18,690 --> 00:23:22,650 Lo and this is Anna, Barrity's nurse. 273 00:23:23,410 --> 00:23:24,550 Hi, nice to meet you. 274 00:23:25,030 --> 00:23:27,270 Hello, Lo and nice to meet you, too. 275 00:23:27,770 --> 00:23:31,700 It's not a good time. 276 00:23:33,960 --> 00:23:35,100 We're just about to take a walk. 277 00:23:41,110 --> 00:23:42,150 This is Lo and Ashley. 278 00:23:54,000 --> 00:23:55,020 Barrity, how are you? 279 00:24:26,510 --> 00:24:27,490 I should have copied you, dude. 280 00:24:31,610 --> 00:24:32,290 Things close. 281 00:24:33,610 --> 00:24:34,350 Because the media. 282 00:24:35,110 --> 00:24:37,090 And if it should find out, just be it. 283 00:24:37,370 --> 00:24:39,510 There's no way I can help her write. 284 00:24:39,730 --> 00:24:40,750 I can't. 285 00:24:41,070 --> 00:24:42,690 Barrity was inspired by your writing. 286 00:24:44,550 --> 00:24:46,230 You're the only writer who could do this. 287 00:24:47,530 --> 00:24:48,370 I'm certain of it. 288 00:25:24,610 --> 00:25:26,370 Books are from the villain's point of view. 289 00:26:41,970 --> 00:26:43,390 Authors note. 290 00:26:44,850 --> 00:26:53,330 The thing I abhor most about autobiographies are the counterfeit thoughts draped over every sentence. 291 00:26:54,470 --> 00:27:04,330 A writer should never have the audacity to write about themselves unless they are willing to separate every layer of protection between their soul 292 00:27:04,330 --> 00:27:05,950 and the book. 293 00:27:07,070 --> 00:27:16,930 The words should come directly from the center of the gut, tearing through flesh and bone as they break free. 294 00:27:17,710 --> 00:27:20,330 Ugly and honest. 295 00:27:26,470 --> 00:27:26,930 Exposed. 296 00:27:49,280 --> 00:27:55,980 Autobiography encouraging the reader to like the author is not a true autobiography. 297 00:27:57,780 --> 00:27:59,640 No one is likable. 298 00:27:59,660 --> 00:28:01,800 From the inside out. 299 00:28:04,190 --> 00:28:13,110 One should only walk away from an autobiography with, at best, an uncomfortable distaste 300 00:28:13,110 --> 00:28:15,110 for its author. 301 00:28:18,410 --> 00:28:25,790 Yet, even with my generous warning, you're going to continue to ingest my words? 302 00:28:26,890 --> 00:28:30,110 Because here you are. 303 00:28:31,870 --> 00:28:32,270 Human. 304 00:28:35,100 --> 00:28:35,860 Curious. 305 00:28:37,100 --> 00:28:37,420 Pfft. 306 00:28:40,070 --> 00:28:40,750 Carry on. 307 00:28:49,340 --> 00:28:50,380 But know one thing. 308 00:28:50,660 --> 00:28:54,140 There is no light where we're going. 309 00:29:02,480 --> 00:29:03,520 Chapter one. 310 00:29:04,260 --> 00:29:11,060 I sometimes think back on the night I met Jeremy and wonder, was it my destiny to suffer from the beginning? 311 00:29:12,140 --> 00:29:15,740 Or is my tragic end the result of poor choices? 312 00:29:20,500 --> 00:29:26,360 I wouldn't say I was lost before I met Jeremy, but I had certainly never been found. 313 00:29:29,600 --> 00:29:31,240 I had no interest in love. 314 00:29:32,460 --> 00:29:34,520 I was just looking for a well-funded fling. 315 00:29:36,580 --> 00:29:42,620 And judging by the looks of Jeremy, I was going to leave that party an overachiever. 316 00:29:51,540 --> 00:29:53,680 You serve early, one of the rest of the evening. 317 00:29:59,140 --> 00:30:02,640 I'm perfectly capable of knowing what I've had enough to drink. 318 00:30:03,140 --> 00:30:03,940 I'm sure you are. 319 00:30:04,400 --> 00:30:05,260 I'd like another. 320 00:30:06,080 --> 00:30:06,820 I'm sorry, ma'am. 321 00:30:06,860 --> 00:30:08,400 I've been out of such a soothing water. 322 00:30:11,700 --> 00:30:12,860 Is this my crime? 323 00:30:15,220 --> 00:30:17,580 I've been watching you since I walked in. 324 00:30:18,640 --> 00:30:20,840 You've had three drinks in the last 45 minutes. 325 00:30:20,980 --> 00:30:22,420 I think you are in a great position. 326 00:30:23,080 --> 00:30:23,540 Uncomfortable. 327 00:30:24,500 --> 00:30:25,820 It's getting late at the gate. 328 00:30:27,600 --> 00:30:29,380 To make that choice, I'd like you to be sober. 329 00:30:41,120 --> 00:30:42,180 I'm not a walker. 330 00:30:43,820 --> 00:30:44,560 Make that two. 331 00:31:31,560 --> 00:31:32,420 I'm not a walker. 332 00:31:32,620 --> 00:31:32,880 I'm in trouble. 333 00:31:33,380 --> 00:31:35,040 But, love is like that. 334 00:31:35,760 --> 00:31:37,000 Top of my side. 335 00:31:48,531 --> 00:31:50,322 How long do we have ? 336 00:31:50,322 --> 00:31:51,660 Where is the driver ? 337 00:31:51,860 --> 00:31:53,185 I don't know. 338 00:31:53,385 --> 00:31:55,711 This is not my car. 339 00:31:58,335 --> 00:31:59,335 Excuse me ? 340 00:31:59,535 --> 00:32:01,347 I have a Honda Civic. 341 00:32:03,914 --> 00:32:05,854 What the fuck you guys do in my Limo ? 342 00:32:13,420 --> 00:32:17,800 Before we knew it, we were locked in the junkies. 343 00:32:18,960 --> 00:32:21,920 I was his drug, and he was mine. 344 00:32:24,720 --> 00:32:29,940 Until he discovered the one thing that meant more to him than I did. 345 00:33:40,800 --> 00:33:42,380 I hate him. 346 00:34:26,320 --> 00:34:27,120 It's noisy. 347 00:34:29,640 --> 00:34:31,800 Oh, for the love of God, you scared me. 348 00:34:32,080 --> 00:34:32,760 I didn't mean to. 349 00:34:32,960 --> 00:34:34,720 It's Verity's hospital bed. 350 00:34:34,820 --> 00:34:38,000 I can turn it off if you want me to. 351 00:34:38,000 --> 00:34:38,780 No, it's fine. 352 00:34:39,700 --> 00:34:40,500 It's on timer. 353 00:34:41,000 --> 00:34:43,380 It just takes the weight off her pressure points. 354 00:34:45,380 --> 00:34:46,360 It's really late. 355 00:34:46,940 --> 00:34:47,720 Are you hungry? 356 00:34:50,320 --> 00:34:57,520 Anna usually does meal prep, but I am a genius when it comes to putting a slice of pizza in the microwave. 357 00:34:59,800 --> 00:35:01,240 Wow, thank you. 358 00:35:01,380 --> 00:35:04,560 Joy, how's the excavation going? 359 00:35:06,120 --> 00:35:08,460 You were right, it was a lot. 360 00:35:08,620 --> 00:35:11,180 Yeah, she was constantly taking notes. 361 00:35:11,180 --> 00:35:21,080 There was this one time that we were at the zoo, and she didn't have anything to write on, so she took a Sharpie and she 362 00:35:21,080 --> 00:35:23,860 wrote character names on Cruise's diaper. 363 00:35:26,360 --> 00:35:28,420 How did you and Verity meet? 364 00:35:30,120 --> 00:35:31,800 We met at a party. 365 00:35:32,920 --> 00:35:35,620 She was wearing pretty much the most amazing dress I'd ever seen. 366 00:35:37,480 --> 00:35:38,800 So we left the party together. 367 00:35:39,860 --> 00:35:42,500 And when we got outside, there was a limo. 368 00:35:43,060 --> 00:35:45,480 And I opened the door to it, and she got in. 369 00:35:46,640 --> 00:35:49,120 And then the driver came back, and I had to admit the limo wasn't mine. 370 00:36:09,880 --> 00:36:13,940 One night he suggested I move in with him during sex. 371 00:36:14,880 --> 00:36:16,100 He does that sometimes. 372 00:36:16,840 --> 00:36:20,020 Makes huge decisions about our lives together while he's fucking me. 373 00:37:47,477 --> 00:37:50,960 Jeremy was transferred to another city for work. 374 00:37:51,640 --> 00:37:53,300 I didn't think I could survive. 375 00:37:56,920 --> 00:37:58,640 And that is when I became a writer. 376 00:38:03,890 --> 00:38:06,190 My days were filled with thoughts of Jeremy. 377 00:38:07,410 --> 00:38:17,110 And if I didn't figure out how to fill them with thoughts of something else until he returned, I was afraid I wouldn't be able to hide how much his absence gutted me. 378 00:38:17,110 --> 00:38:22,500 I wrote an entire novel in the few months he was gone. 379 00:38:23,420 --> 00:38:27,460 I created a fictional Jeremy and called him Lame. 380 00:38:29,860 --> 00:38:33,860 Never in my wildest dreams could I have imagined where it would all lead. 381 00:38:35,840 --> 00:38:37,460 But Jeremy finally returned home. 382 00:38:37,919 --> 00:38:38,980 It was the middle of the night. 383 00:38:39,600 --> 00:38:40,880 I was fast asleep. 384 00:38:41,480 --> 00:38:41,880 What? 385 00:38:42,660 --> 00:38:43,120 Wake up. 386 00:38:44,060 --> 00:38:44,640 What do you mean? 387 00:38:44,640 --> 00:38:47,060 I read your manuscript. 388 00:38:48,620 --> 00:38:49,120 What? 389 00:38:51,420 --> 00:38:51,920 No. 390 00:38:53,480 --> 00:38:54,000 Jeremy? 391 00:38:54,340 --> 00:38:55,400 No, I told you not to. 392 00:38:55,500 --> 00:38:55,880 You said you would. 393 00:38:55,900 --> 00:38:56,340 You promised. 394 00:38:56,860 --> 00:38:57,580 I could help myself. 395 00:38:57,920 --> 00:38:58,840 Don't do that. 396 00:38:59,240 --> 00:38:59,800 It's good. 397 00:39:02,540 --> 00:39:03,820 It's really good. 398 00:39:06,120 --> 00:39:07,180 Say it again. 399 00:39:07,680 --> 00:39:08,560 You're fucking brilliant. 400 00:39:08,900 --> 00:39:13,740 It was the first taste of what it felt like for a reader to enjoy what I had created for them. 401 00:39:15,000 --> 00:39:24,560 That one comment, that one sweet, simple comment meant so much to me. 402 00:39:29,220 --> 00:39:30,240 You've been there. 403 00:39:32,600 --> 00:39:33,620 You deserve it. 404 00:42:11,830 --> 00:42:14,890 Then she just suddenly turned and looked directly at me. 405 00:42:15,270 --> 00:42:17,710 Didn't you just say she can't move or talk? 406 00:42:17,830 --> 00:42:18,610 I know, I know. 407 00:42:18,790 --> 00:42:19,350 She can't. 408 00:42:19,350 --> 00:42:21,270 I feel like I'm losing my mind. 409 00:42:22,030 --> 00:42:23,810 You are going through a lot right now. 410 00:42:24,290 --> 00:42:25,250 It's a lot you have to deal with. 411 00:42:26,130 --> 00:42:26,950 You're craving. 412 00:42:27,330 --> 00:42:28,050 You're stressed. 413 00:42:29,150 --> 00:42:30,790 Just keep your head down, okay? 414 00:42:31,410 --> 00:42:33,430 You just need to do what you're there to do. 415 00:42:34,370 --> 00:42:36,490 And then you should adopt all God in it. 416 00:42:36,690 --> 00:42:36,830 Okay? 417 00:42:37,730 --> 00:42:38,210 Yeah. 418 00:42:38,670 --> 00:42:39,010 Okay. 419 00:42:49,350 --> 00:42:51,670 Okay. 420 00:43:30,370 --> 00:43:32,970 I don't know what I'm doing. 421 00:43:48,480 --> 00:43:49,840 Right there, not over here. 422 00:43:50,200 --> 00:43:50,780 Over here, right? 423 00:43:51,420 --> 00:43:51,900 No. 424 00:43:54,480 --> 00:43:56,060 Oh no you didn't. 425 00:43:57,880 --> 00:43:58,480 Hey. 426 00:43:58,480 --> 00:43:58,580 Hey. 427 00:43:59,100 --> 00:43:59,500 Hi. 428 00:43:59,940 --> 00:44:00,800 You've been in there all day. 429 00:44:01,880 --> 00:44:02,580 You making progress? 430 00:44:03,220 --> 00:44:03,520 Yeah. 431 00:44:04,240 --> 00:44:06,000 Starting to piece it all together. 432 00:44:06,660 --> 00:44:07,000 Yeah. 433 00:44:07,680 --> 00:44:08,440 What are you doing? 434 00:44:08,560 --> 00:44:10,340 You making a big pile of wood? 435 00:44:11,020 --> 00:44:12,660 There's a rotted out shed up there. 436 00:44:13,060 --> 00:44:14,260 Crew is deforming. 437 00:44:14,460 --> 00:44:14,760 Cool. 438 00:44:15,280 --> 00:44:16,880 But big pile of wood, yeah. 439 00:44:18,900 --> 00:44:19,300 Lola? 440 00:44:21,730 --> 00:44:22,210 Hi. 441 00:44:23,070 --> 00:44:24,070 I'm heading out to the store. 442 00:44:26,420 --> 00:44:26,780 Okay. 443 00:44:27,800 --> 00:44:28,680 No artistic in and out. 444 00:44:29,260 --> 00:44:29,740 Okay. 445 00:44:38,840 --> 00:44:39,400 Yay! 446 00:44:40,620 --> 00:44:40,800 Hi, Crew. 447 00:44:43,100 --> 00:44:43,440 Hi. 448 00:44:45,960 --> 00:44:47,840 I was just taking a little break from working. 449 00:44:48,820 --> 00:44:50,160 Can I come play with you? 450 00:44:52,080 --> 00:44:52,640 Um... 451 00:44:52,640 --> 00:44:53,680 I'm hoping I can. 452 00:44:54,720 --> 00:44:55,280 Okay. 453 00:44:57,440 --> 00:44:58,600 We can play another time. 454 00:44:59,520 --> 00:44:59,860 Okay. 455 00:46:00,880 --> 00:46:08,860 It was around the third month, a few weeks after I found out I was pregnant, that I started to notice the difference. 456 00:46:11,300 --> 00:46:15,760 My hands were out of my stomach and I felt something foreign. 457 00:46:18,740 --> 00:46:20,460 It was disgusting. 458 00:46:50,020 --> 00:46:51,560 Are you still attracted to me? 459 00:46:52,940 --> 00:46:54,940 You're the most beautiful woman I've ever met. 460 00:46:57,280 --> 00:46:58,420 I'm so proud of you. 461 00:46:59,220 --> 00:47:03,420 It was a lie to make me feel better, but I was grateful. 462 00:47:04,180 --> 00:47:05,740 I squeezed his hands. 463 00:47:06,319 --> 00:47:07,680 He spun me around the face. 464 00:47:12,359 --> 00:47:14,660 It's stiff between my legs. 465 00:47:15,380 --> 00:47:16,819 I was completely naked. 466 00:47:17,920 --> 00:47:25,079 The only thing between us were his pants and the grotesque pooch I was still trying to suck in. 467 00:47:28,700 --> 00:47:32,340 By six months, I felt like I was about to pop. 468 00:47:35,590 --> 00:47:36,450 Someone's hungry. 469 00:47:37,250 --> 00:47:38,110 I am not. 470 00:47:38,530 --> 00:47:39,810 I'm not in bed. 471 00:47:39,810 --> 00:47:41,610 Because now you're babying them. 472 00:47:44,730 --> 00:47:45,710 Did you feel that one? 473 00:47:47,030 --> 00:47:47,390 Yeah. 474 00:47:56,780 --> 00:47:57,940 Do you love them? 475 00:47:59,620 --> 00:48:00,560 I love them more than anything. 476 00:48:05,510 --> 00:48:06,150 More than me? 477 00:48:09,430 --> 00:48:10,130 Different from you. 478 00:48:15,760 --> 00:48:16,940 But that's how it should be, right? 479 00:48:19,540 --> 00:48:21,700 Do you feel guilty because you love them more than you love me? 480 00:48:22,660 --> 00:48:23,580 Don't feel guilty. 481 00:48:25,500 --> 00:48:27,300 You should love them more than you love me. 482 00:48:28,780 --> 00:48:31,180 Our love for each other is conditional, but our love for them isn't. 483 00:48:36,790 --> 00:48:38,990 My love for you is unconditional. 484 00:48:44,300 --> 00:48:46,440 Yeah, baby, my love for you is unconditional too. 485 00:48:46,960 --> 00:48:47,620 It's one of them. 486 00:48:51,770 --> 00:48:54,410 I started wishing I never got pregnant. 487 00:48:55,750 --> 00:49:00,910 I fantasized that if we had no children, he would make me his priority again. 488 00:49:02,610 --> 00:49:05,030 But there's no turning back. 489 00:49:06,170 --> 00:49:09,970 Jeremy wanted them, and so that was that. 490 00:49:15,710 --> 00:49:17,890 Are you ready to move on to the next one? 491 00:49:18,210 --> 00:49:19,790 Yes, I am, thank you. 492 00:49:20,030 --> 00:49:20,430 To you. 493 00:49:20,690 --> 00:49:21,090 To you. 494 00:49:22,990 --> 00:49:23,170 Huh? 495 00:49:24,150 --> 00:49:28,750 Did any part of your cozy Chelsea apartment where you wrote your first book serve as a reference? 496 00:49:29,350 --> 00:49:30,790 You know, it's where our family started. 497 00:49:31,010 --> 00:49:33,770 It's where my career as a writer started. 498 00:49:34,410 --> 00:49:36,910 I still have a twelve-year-old, but I have a three-year-old. 499 00:49:37,150 --> 00:49:46,150 I love being able to tell my children stories, and I love to, like I said, show myself up in my lair, and terrorize the rest of the world. 500 00:49:46,890 --> 00:49:53,230 I hate myself for thinking that I could do this, and everything would be all right. 501 00:49:58,940 --> 00:50:02,420 Everything was not all right. 502 00:50:04,920 --> 00:50:10,410 Crew was fairly quiet, but Harper cried constantly. 503 00:50:14,000 --> 00:50:19,690 It was like she was trying to punish me, telling me I was a bad mother, I'm certain of it. 504 00:50:21,350 --> 00:50:25,850 When Jeremy finally went back to work, I was terrified of being left alone with them. 505 00:50:27,070 --> 00:50:32,570 They couldn't afford a nanny, because the advance I had received for the sale of my first book was too small. 506 00:50:34,790 --> 00:50:39,590 However, him leaving turned out to be the best thing that ever happened to me. 507 00:50:41,830 --> 00:50:47,170 He would leave at seven in the morning, and I would wake up with him so he could see me caring for the twins. 508 00:50:49,730 --> 00:50:54,430 I would put them in the clears, unhook their mothers, and go back to bed. 509 00:51:01,470 --> 00:51:05,590 I began getting more sleep than I think I'd ever gotten. 510 00:51:11,250 --> 00:51:14,550 Every night when he'd walk in the door, the babies would be calm. 511 00:51:15,150 --> 00:51:21,250 The smell of dinner would be coming from the kitchen, and he'd be blown away by how well I was tackling everything. 512 00:51:25,020 --> 00:51:30,300 And the twins would sleep all night from the exhaustion from crying all day. 513 00:51:31,060 --> 00:51:32,360 It was probably good for them. 514 00:51:33,400 --> 00:51:38,060 The best part was, I was able to write most nights while everyone slept. 515 00:51:38,820 --> 00:51:42,120 The only place that was lacking was in the bedroom. 516 00:52:02,160 --> 00:52:04,820 Jeremy talked a lot about sins. 517 00:52:13,100 --> 00:52:19,500 Most fascinating was that it's hard to tell the difference between sins and suffocation. 518 00:53:00,200 --> 00:53:07,660 To accept this personal hell, we're happy forced to raise these children and act like I love them for the rest of their lives. 519 00:53:32,260 --> 00:53:33,200 Can I help you find something? 520 00:53:42,290 --> 00:53:44,190 Is there any alcohol in the house? 521 00:53:45,650 --> 00:53:46,010 Yes. 522 00:53:56,250 --> 00:53:57,190 Thank you. 523 00:54:08,500 --> 00:54:10,300 Sure, what's going on? 524 00:54:15,080 --> 00:54:15,880 Your wife. 525 00:54:18,170 --> 00:54:20,650 She has this. 526 00:54:25,580 --> 00:54:28,240 Her books freak me out. 527 00:54:29,500 --> 00:54:33,120 And yet, you write in the same genre. 528 00:54:34,240 --> 00:54:39,800 Yeah, well, sometimes my own writing freaks me out too. 529 00:54:41,260 --> 00:54:42,520 Maybe you should switch to romance. 530 00:54:43,180 --> 00:54:43,660 Mm-hmm. 531 00:54:44,920 --> 00:54:45,660 Mm-hmm. 532 00:54:46,240 --> 00:54:47,720 Yeah, I probably will. 533 00:54:53,670 --> 00:54:54,770 You missed dinner. 534 00:54:55,090 --> 00:54:56,410 This is still warm if you want some. 535 00:54:56,590 --> 00:54:57,970 Okay, I should eat. 536 00:54:58,690 --> 00:54:59,030 Okay. 537 00:55:03,790 --> 00:55:04,650 Thank you. 538 00:55:12,450 --> 00:55:12,710 Mm. 539 00:55:21,430 --> 00:55:23,710 Can I ask a question? 540 00:55:27,380 --> 00:55:28,020 Please do. 541 00:55:28,900 --> 00:55:31,160 Just tell me if I'm being too mousy. 542 00:55:34,280 --> 00:55:39,420 But is it possible that Verity could make a full recovery? 543 00:55:39,420 --> 00:55:39,620 I'm sorry. 544 00:55:51,100 --> 00:55:51,440 No. 545 00:55:52,760 --> 00:55:56,740 Don't do, don't think she'll ever walk or talk again. 546 00:55:57,660 --> 00:56:00,140 So she's paralyzed? 547 00:56:01,440 --> 00:56:11,160 There wasn't any damage to her spleen and cord, but her mind is, I mean, she has basic reflexes. 548 00:56:11,160 --> 00:56:20,040 She can eat and drink and clink and moodle and, but none of it's intentional. 549 00:56:23,380 --> 00:56:29,440 We hope that with continued therapy, she'll be able to improve a little bit more. 550 00:56:31,360 --> 00:56:32,280 But who knows? 551 00:56:37,660 --> 00:56:38,240 Daddy. 552 00:56:41,320 --> 00:56:42,640 Hey, buddy, what's up? 553 00:56:43,100 --> 00:56:43,980 Ready for bed. 554 00:56:44,080 --> 00:56:44,640 Okay, yeah. 555 00:56:45,960 --> 00:56:47,180 Did you brush your teeth? 556 00:56:47,560 --> 00:56:47,720 Yeah. 557 00:56:47,920 --> 00:56:48,560 Okay, good. 558 00:56:48,740 --> 00:56:49,040 Let me see. 559 00:56:51,080 --> 00:56:52,260 Let's go say goodnight to mommy. 560 00:56:52,780 --> 00:56:53,640 Goodnight, mom. 561 00:56:54,200 --> 00:56:54,560 Goodnight. 562 00:57:22,220 --> 00:57:23,000 That's hard work. 563 00:57:26,250 --> 00:57:27,010 What was she like? 564 00:57:28,690 --> 00:57:31,030 She was, she was amazing. 565 00:57:34,140 --> 00:57:35,600 I'm sure Verity understood the way I did. 566 00:57:39,190 --> 00:57:44,470 She had trouble expressing her emotions, but I felt like I could just read what she needed, you know? 567 00:57:45,410 --> 00:57:49,370 I knew what made her tick, what made her happy and what made her sad. 568 00:57:50,450 --> 00:57:53,930 Even when she had a tough time revealing all that to the world. 569 00:57:54,750 --> 00:57:56,990 But she was amazing. 570 00:58:03,300 --> 00:58:05,100 Were they close, Pepper and Krim? 571 00:58:06,120 --> 00:58:06,560 Yeah. 572 00:58:07,760 --> 00:58:08,240 They were. 573 00:58:08,240 --> 00:58:08,940 I don't know. 574 00:58:15,410 --> 00:58:17,470 He hasn't even asked about her. 575 00:58:20,120 --> 00:58:20,540 Not once. 576 00:58:22,360 --> 00:58:23,680 Hasn't even mentioned her name. 577 00:58:25,020 --> 00:58:32,400 I sent him to therapy for a couple of months and I was just afraid that maybe it was a weakling reminder of everything. 578 00:58:32,760 --> 00:58:38,540 So I pulled him out, but I'll bring him back. 579 00:58:40,540 --> 00:58:44,120 He shows any signs of needing it, making sure he's okay. 580 00:58:51,080 --> 00:58:51,640 And you? 581 00:58:54,120 --> 00:58:55,240 I love you. 582 00:58:57,660 --> 00:58:58,340 How are you? 583 00:59:30,240 --> 00:59:30,740 Dad! 584 00:59:32,600 --> 00:59:33,480 Yeah, buddy? 585 00:59:34,640 --> 00:59:36,000 I can't sleep. 586 00:59:39,600 --> 00:59:40,300 Okay, I'm coming. 587 01:03:10,560 --> 01:03:18,900 Hi Loan, so where are you in the process of marketing a BRT but eager to get an announcement - that is all pending our approval, right? 588 01:03:19,300 --> 01:03:23,920 Yes, of course, but we do need some lead time that's Loan is a very fast writer. 589 01:03:24,540 --> 01:03:25,340 Right Loan? 590 01:03:25,920 --> 01:03:26,979 Yes, 591 01:04:03,470 --> 01:04:09,410 I pretty much made it through all the notes, so I'll probably start writing soon. 592 01:04:13,460 --> 01:04:15,480 I think I'll leave in the next day or two. 593 01:04:17,660 --> 01:04:18,200 Yeah? 594 01:04:20,100 --> 01:04:23,300 Yeah, thank you for letting me stay. 595 01:04:25,970 --> 01:04:27,310 Yeah, I wish it could have been a little longer. 596 01:04:28,930 --> 01:04:31,430 I feel like I barely got to know you. 597 01:04:32,750 --> 01:04:34,090 What do you want to know? 598 01:04:36,590 --> 01:04:37,150 What's your birthday? 599 01:04:38,630 --> 01:04:39,310 God. 600 01:04:40,750 --> 01:04:41,730 What's so funny? 601 01:04:43,350 --> 01:04:46,870 My birthday was yesterday. 602 01:04:48,290 --> 01:04:49,210 Shut up. 603 01:04:49,630 --> 01:04:50,150 Seriously? 604 01:04:51,590 --> 01:04:52,690 You're lying. 605 01:04:53,890 --> 01:04:54,610 I'm not lying. 606 01:04:55,310 --> 01:04:57,470 We have to celebrate, obviously. 607 01:04:57,990 --> 01:04:58,410 No. 608 01:04:58,870 --> 01:05:03,250 Yeah, there's one good restaurant in town. 609 01:05:03,470 --> 01:05:07,630 It's the best Bavarian restaurant in rural Vermont. 610 01:05:08,970 --> 01:05:09,650 Hands down. 611 01:05:10,450 --> 01:05:11,690 It has amazing Wiener Schnitzel. 612 01:05:12,250 --> 01:05:15,450 Wow, that sounds really irresistible. 613 01:05:15,730 --> 01:05:18,410 I'm really not a celebration person. 614 01:05:18,810 --> 01:05:20,770 Okay, could be fun. 615 01:05:22,130 --> 01:05:24,070 We can get dressed up, order some good wine. 616 01:05:28,340 --> 01:05:30,180 I didn't pack for a special occasion. 617 01:05:33,010 --> 01:05:35,830 Ferdy has lots of fancy clothes if you want to borrow something from her closet. 618 01:06:18,690 --> 01:06:19,170 Hi. 619 01:06:28,470 --> 01:06:28,950 Hi. 620 01:06:32,660 --> 01:06:34,060 Can I tell you a joke? 621 01:06:34,460 --> 01:06:35,180 Yes, please. 622 01:06:35,540 --> 01:06:36,880 What is a T-shirt for? 623 01:06:38,580 --> 01:06:39,400 Tell me. 624 01:06:39,720 --> 01:06:40,820 Because he has a little ice. 625 01:06:41,520 --> 01:06:42,740 He has a little ice. 626 01:06:43,340 --> 01:06:44,260 That's a good one. 627 01:06:45,240 --> 01:06:46,520 Um, knock knock. 628 01:06:48,060 --> 01:06:48,900 Interrupting cow. 629 01:06:52,720 --> 01:06:54,620 That's a new one for the Graffiti Dwarf. 630 01:06:54,780 --> 01:06:56,560 That's a new one for the Graffiti Dwarf. 631 01:06:56,800 --> 01:06:57,660 Anna, we're leaving now. 632 01:06:58,620 --> 01:07:00,740 I'll see you when we get back. 633 01:07:01,160 --> 01:07:02,460 We're probably moored in the morning. 634 01:07:02,680 --> 01:07:04,080 Okay, be good for Anna, all right? 635 01:07:04,440 --> 01:07:05,060 I love you. 636 01:07:05,080 --> 01:07:06,140 All right, I love you too. 637 01:07:10,040 --> 01:07:12,620 Okay, so what's your process? 638 01:07:13,360 --> 01:07:14,000 My process? 639 01:07:14,420 --> 01:07:17,360 Yeah, all writers have processes, don't they? 640 01:07:17,540 --> 01:07:17,880 What's yours? 641 01:07:18,460 --> 01:07:27,660 Oh god, um, um, uh, well, I start writing, 642 01:07:28,100 --> 01:07:37,120 and then I hate everything I write, but I keep writing, and then I finish the book, and I pretend I'm happy. 643 01:07:38,600 --> 01:07:39,500 That sounds healthy. 644 01:07:39,840 --> 01:07:41,140 It's a really fun time. 645 01:07:42,120 --> 01:07:43,280 Okay, I have one more question. 646 01:07:44,900 --> 01:07:45,880 Are you hating this? 647 01:07:47,900 --> 01:07:49,040 Are you having any fun at all? 648 01:07:50,540 --> 01:07:51,400 I'm having fun. 649 01:07:51,840 --> 01:07:52,980 It's an olive book I'm having in. 650 01:07:53,620 --> 01:07:56,280 I can't tell from here. 651 01:07:56,420 --> 01:07:57,300 That's just my face. 652 01:07:57,300 --> 01:07:59,640 I have a resting bored face. 653 01:08:00,260 --> 01:08:04,420 I get that a lot, but I am having a good time, I promise. 654 01:08:05,360 --> 01:08:10,620 This is by far the best Bavarian restaurant I've ever been to. 655 01:08:10,680 --> 01:08:11,920 I told you, it's the best. 656 01:08:12,320 --> 01:08:14,260 The lederhosen is a really nice touch. 657 01:08:15,000 --> 01:08:16,980 Makes me feel overdressed. 658 01:08:17,560 --> 01:08:18,220 No, no, it's sweet. 659 01:08:18,980 --> 01:08:20,300 It's like sharing a formal way. 660 01:08:23,980 --> 01:08:25,160 Can I ask you one more question? 661 01:08:26,060 --> 01:08:26,500 Yeah. 662 01:08:28,720 --> 01:08:30,679 Do you think that I should get crew back into therapy? 663 01:08:32,080 --> 01:08:34,039 Yes, definitely. 664 01:08:37,280 --> 01:08:38,659 Have you ever been in therapy? 665 01:08:39,720 --> 01:08:44,350 Yeah, it's the best thing that ever happened to me. 666 01:08:45,770 --> 01:08:55,310 I was really troubled as a kid, and this therapist helped me understand that there wasn't something 667 01:08:55,310 --> 01:08:56,450 wrong with me. 668 01:08:58,250 --> 01:09:04,750 After years of being told that, I started to believe it. 669 01:09:08,630 --> 01:09:10,670 Did your mom go with you to therapy? 670 01:09:15,180 --> 01:09:18,710 No, no. 671 01:09:21,350 --> 01:09:22,850 We were just very distant. 672 01:09:24,430 --> 01:09:31,540 She actually reminds me a lot of the 673 01:09:31,540 --> 01:09:36,260 main character in Meredith's books. 674 01:09:36,720 --> 01:09:39,620 Oh, that's bad. 675 01:09:40,880 --> 01:09:42,320 You really haven't read them? 676 01:09:43,820 --> 01:09:44,500 Only the first. 677 01:09:45,400 --> 01:09:45,840 Why? 678 01:09:47,280 --> 01:09:51,120 Because I couldn't fathom and that all came from her imagination. 679 01:09:53,420 --> 01:09:58,720 She would always get so angry at me for not reading her manuscripts. 680 01:09:59,760 --> 01:10:03,780 She needed my validation for some reason even though the whole world was validating her. 681 01:10:12,860 --> 01:10:14,040 Where do you get your validation? 682 01:10:15,840 --> 01:10:16,620 I don't. 683 01:10:18,120 --> 01:10:19,300 My books aren't popular. 684 01:10:21,100 --> 01:10:30,850 I mean, maybe I got like a nice review here or there, but I've never had the experience of somebody 685 01:10:30,850 --> 01:10:35,470 saying to my face, your writing matters to me. 686 01:10:35,650 --> 01:10:39,550 I imagine that that would be nice. 687 01:10:40,290 --> 01:10:41,250 I have to tell you something. 688 01:10:51,730 --> 01:10:53,310 Verity didn't read your book. 689 01:10:55,510 --> 01:10:56,570 And why would you say that? 690 01:10:57,870 --> 01:10:58,710 I read your book. 691 01:11:00,350 --> 01:11:03,150 It was phenomenal. 692 01:11:03,150 --> 01:11:12,930 And I'm sorry, but I just knew that it wouldn't mean as much coming from me as it would 693 01:11:12,930 --> 01:11:13,610 from Verity. 694 01:11:13,790 --> 01:11:16,750 And for some reason, I really wanted it to mean something to you. 695 01:11:21,320 --> 01:11:24,480 Because the thing is, your writing matters to me, Lohan. 696 01:11:53,320 --> 01:11:54,840 Happy birthday to you. 697 01:11:56,780 --> 01:11:59,100 Happy birthday to Lohan. 698 01:11:59,740 --> 01:12:03,020 Happy birthday to you. 699 01:12:22,785 --> 01:12:23,480 Do you know what the secret 700 01:12:23,480 --> 01:12:25,660 is to such a delicious cupcake? 701 01:12:26,340 --> 01:12:27,380 Tell me. 702 01:12:27,900 --> 01:12:28,740 It's vanilla pudding. 703 01:12:29,780 --> 01:12:30,460 Pudding? 704 01:12:38,840 --> 01:12:40,060 That's very good. 705 01:12:40,260 --> 01:12:40,480 Yeah? 706 01:12:40,800 --> 01:12:41,780 I told you. 707 01:12:44,020 --> 01:12:46,280 You got ice cream? 708 01:12:47,640 --> 01:12:47,960 Wait. 709 01:14:26,790 --> 01:14:28,530 I'm sorry. I shouldn't have kissed you before I left the house. 710 01:14:37,740 --> 01:14:38,660 She was standing right there. 711 01:14:38,720 --> 01:14:39,180 She was standing. 712 01:14:39,960 --> 01:14:41,360 She was standing right there. 713 01:14:41,520 --> 01:14:42,540 Your fucking wife. 714 01:15:13,820 --> 01:15:15,180 So there's no one at the house. 715 01:15:16,300 --> 01:15:16,900 I had to run out. 716 01:15:18,960 --> 01:15:20,160 Cruz was asleep. 717 01:15:24,930 --> 01:15:25,810 Verity wasn't there. 718 01:15:30,650 --> 01:15:31,750 This is my fault. 719 01:15:33,070 --> 01:15:34,950 You've been working non-stop. 720 01:15:35,470 --> 01:15:36,070 You're exhausted. 721 01:15:36,590 --> 01:15:41,370 And then I just, you know, and I just feel like. 722 01:15:41,890 --> 01:15:42,970 Yeah, you're right. 723 01:15:43,210 --> 01:15:45,690 It's probably paranoia and guilt. 724 01:15:51,290 --> 01:15:52,330 This place is insane. 725 01:15:54,800 --> 01:15:57,060 Jeremy, you are a prisoner in your own home. 726 01:15:58,640 --> 01:15:59,920 Cruz is a prisoner. 727 01:16:01,100 --> 01:16:02,980 He needs to get away from here. 728 01:16:03,080 --> 01:16:04,540 You need to go back to work. 729 01:16:06,680 --> 01:16:08,080 Take moments, Jeremy. 730 01:16:13,530 --> 01:16:15,410 You can take selfish moments. 731 01:16:18,770 --> 01:16:30,730 It's hard to have a life where you have moments that have nothing to do with her and have everything to do with just you Yes. 732 01:16:38,680 --> 01:16:39,160 You. 733 01:16:41,050 --> 01:16:42,350 I want you, Laura. 734 01:16:48,720 --> 01:16:49,380 I want you. 735 01:19:06,560 --> 01:19:09,640 Daddy, you're supposed to take us canoeing. 736 01:19:10,000 --> 01:19:12,300 Sweetie, well, we can take you. 737 01:19:22,280 --> 01:19:22,760 Awesome. 738 01:19:24,180 --> 01:19:25,360 I want to hear all about it when I get back. 739 01:19:25,420 --> 01:19:25,620 Okay. 740 01:19:26,040 --> 01:19:26,500 I'll be back. 741 01:19:26,600 --> 01:19:26,720 Bye. 742 01:19:27,040 --> 01:19:27,540 What's this? 743 01:19:27,900 --> 01:19:28,760 For you. 744 01:19:30,940 --> 01:19:32,280 Isn't it so pretty? 745 01:19:32,540 --> 01:19:33,440 I love it. 746 01:19:33,440 --> 01:19:34,580 It's okay. 747 01:19:34,960 --> 01:19:37,000 I love you so much, Harper. 748 01:19:37,560 --> 01:19:38,180 I love you. 749 01:19:38,680 --> 01:19:40,280 You be good for mommy, okay? 750 01:19:40,500 --> 01:19:40,860 Okay. 751 01:19:41,820 --> 01:19:42,260 Bye. 752 01:19:44,820 --> 01:19:45,480 See you. 753 01:20:33,770 --> 01:20:35,810 Harper was sitting in the front of the boat. 754 01:20:36,690 --> 01:20:42,510 Cruz was wearing light vests. 755 01:20:44,350 --> 01:20:47,070 Then I shifted on my way to work. 756 01:21:46,360 --> 01:21:48,300 Laura, I'm leaving now. 757 01:21:49,640 --> 01:21:51,080 There it is, watching TV. 758 01:21:51,760 --> 01:21:52,080 Okay. 759 01:21:52,980 --> 01:21:53,620 Good night, Laura. 760 01:22:04,340 --> 01:22:05,000 Hi, Cruz. 761 01:22:05,920 --> 01:22:08,890 What are you doing? 762 01:22:09,530 --> 01:22:11,110 I'm just playing with the camera. 763 01:22:12,130 --> 01:22:15,700 Can I ask you a question? 764 01:22:16,660 --> 01:22:17,000 Yeah. 765 01:22:22,000 --> 01:22:22,780 Did you ever have a canoe? 766 01:22:25,970 --> 01:22:26,510 Yes. 767 01:22:38,480 --> 01:22:41,940 Do you remember being in the canoe with your mommy and Harper? 768 01:22:51,610 --> 01:22:53,450 Cruz, how did the canoe tip over? 769 01:22:55,300 --> 01:23:00,460 Mommy said I should talk to you if you ask me questions about her. 770 01:23:06,360 --> 01:23:08,680 Your mommy talks to you? 771 01:23:11,560 --> 01:23:14,580 Cruz, is your mommy pretending like she can't talk? 772 01:23:21,740 --> 01:23:22,320 Jared! 773 01:23:23,940 --> 01:23:24,820 What happened? 774 01:23:26,938 --> 01:23:28,720 He bite the knife. 775 01:23:40,910 --> 01:23:41,630 Did I come with you? 776 01:23:42,910 --> 01:23:44,670 No, it took a while. 777 01:23:45,510 --> 01:23:46,690 I need somebody to stay here with Mary. 778 01:27:13,307 --> 01:27:16,560 Why did you be so cruel, selfish, Machiavellian cunt? 779 01:28:06,090 --> 01:28:08,730 The police took my report twice. 780 01:28:09,430 --> 01:28:10,030 It's their job. 781 01:28:10,370 --> 01:28:12,150 Harper leaned over at the edge of the canoe? 782 01:28:12,850 --> 01:28:14,990 The questions are simple enough, easy to answer. 783 01:28:15,590 --> 01:28:16,370 They tipped over. 784 01:28:17,890 --> 01:28:24,090 We all went under the water, but Harper never came up. 785 01:28:25,530 --> 01:28:31,390 And I tried to find her, but I was running out of air, and I needed to get Cruz safety. 786 01:28:36,620 --> 01:28:42,980 I think my performance was so good, it made them uncomfortable to ask me more questions. 787 01:28:45,200 --> 01:28:53,380 Jeremy was shattered, but I figured it would pass, and finally he was going to be mine again. 788 01:28:55,080 --> 01:28:59,920 The irony was, I instantly started writing again. 789 01:29:01,860 --> 01:29:10,780 The words were flowing out of me then, with Jeremy acting like such a sad sack, and no one inside. 790 01:29:12,760 --> 01:29:22,740 It feels as though there's nothing left to say, no future, past, or 791 01:29:22,740 --> 01:29:23,220 deep. 792 01:29:29,830 --> 01:29:32,730 He's become such a drag now that Harper's dead. 793 01:30:02,200 --> 01:30:06,160 Six stitches and a bunch of pain meds, but he'll be okay. 794 01:30:08,660 --> 01:30:10,280 He's out cold for the rest of the night. 795 01:30:14,790 --> 01:30:18,850 The power goes in and out when a storm's like this, so I'm going to take a shower while I still can. 796 01:30:18,970 --> 01:30:21,710 I am covered in blood. 797 01:30:24,770 --> 01:30:27,150 It's kind of starting to be our thing, being covered in blood. 798 01:30:31,420 --> 01:30:32,280 Why do you have this? 799 01:30:36,520 --> 01:30:38,140 Why is your camera dirty, sir? 800 01:30:41,420 --> 01:30:42,340 I can explain that. 801 01:30:42,920 --> 01:30:43,480 We... 802 01:30:43,480 --> 01:30:46,100 we need to talk. 803 01:30:54,260 --> 01:30:57,760 Your wife is not who you think she is. 804 01:30:58,840 --> 01:30:59,620 She's not. 805 01:31:00,020 --> 01:31:02,760 She has been lying to you since the day you met her. 806 01:31:04,620 --> 01:31:04,980 Loan. 807 01:31:05,580 --> 01:31:07,600 Crew told me that she talks to him. 808 01:31:08,140 --> 01:31:09,500 She's helpless, Loan. 809 01:31:10,280 --> 01:31:13,080 I know you have a writer's imagination, but are you listening to what they're saying? 810 01:31:13,080 --> 01:31:13,860 Goddammit, Jeremy! 811 01:31:14,300 --> 01:31:15,540 She killed Harper! 812 01:31:16,220 --> 01:31:16,740 What? 813 01:31:18,060 --> 01:31:19,100 She killed Harper. 814 01:31:24,850 --> 01:31:25,450 Read this. 815 01:31:26,750 --> 01:31:27,430 Read it. 816 01:31:28,710 --> 01:31:29,690 It's a confession. 817 01:31:30,910 --> 01:31:31,890 It's Verity's confession. 818 01:31:32,030 --> 01:31:32,490 She wrote it. 819 01:31:32,550 --> 01:31:33,650 I found it on a thumb drive. 820 01:31:36,760 --> 01:31:38,120 You need to know the truth. 821 01:33:11,870 --> 01:33:13,270 Straight to the police. 822 01:33:13,870 --> 01:33:16,050 And you will be locked up. 823 01:33:16,470 --> 01:33:18,890 And you will never see crew or I again. 824 01:33:20,930 --> 01:33:24,390 Unless you tell me what exactly is happening in this house. 825 01:33:37,070 --> 01:33:37,710 Explain. 826 01:33:45,360 --> 01:33:46,800 You've just been... 827 01:33:46,800 --> 01:33:47,320 Don't hurt me. 828 01:33:47,520 --> 01:33:47,780 What? 829 01:33:48,900 --> 01:33:50,140 Please don't hurt me. 830 01:33:50,260 --> 01:33:50,520 Please. 831 01:33:50,860 --> 01:33:52,120 Don't hurt you! 832 01:35:10,470 --> 01:35:11,750 Not until she stops breathing. 833 01:36:20,200 --> 01:36:20,820 It's okay. 834 01:36:29,365 --> 01:36:30,800 The story and the truth is just going to 835 01:36:30,800 --> 01:36:31,520 stay with us. 836 01:36:32,440 --> 01:36:33,880 Just between us. 837 01:36:34,220 --> 01:36:34,500 Forever. 838 01:36:38,830 --> 01:36:39,930 We did the right thing. 839 01:36:43,830 --> 01:36:44,370 People. 840 01:36:48,360 --> 01:36:49,060 It's okay. 841 01:37:34,190 --> 01:37:35,730 You are free from Verity. 842 01:37:39,650 --> 01:37:41,290 No longer touch us. 843 01:37:42,810 --> 01:37:43,890 Or crew. 844 01:38:01,910 --> 01:38:04,340 Did you have any interaction with Verity last night? 845 01:38:04,340 --> 01:38:07,480 No, I was working in the office. 846 01:38:07,880 --> 01:38:10,440 I was hired to help her write. 847 01:38:11,060 --> 01:38:12,640 And then I went to bed really early. 848 01:38:14,140 --> 01:38:15,620 Maybe, I don't know, ten? 849 01:38:17,340 --> 01:38:18,460 Did you hear or hear anything? 850 01:38:18,780 --> 01:38:21,200 Any idea when she might have left the house? 851 01:38:21,300 --> 01:38:21,400 No. 852 01:38:21,560 --> 01:38:21,780 No. 853 01:38:22,680 --> 01:38:25,320 She's been bedridden, you know, so... 854 01:38:25,320 --> 01:38:27,000 But she's in and out of bed every day. 855 01:38:28,540 --> 01:38:31,280 I can't even imagine what her mental state would be. 856 01:38:31,280 --> 01:38:38,240 I'm just afraid that she might have been confused or distraught and gone looking for a harbor or something. 857 01:38:38,320 --> 01:38:40,419 Anything you don't remember about last night? 858 01:38:41,179 --> 01:38:42,560 Anything that could help? 859 01:38:50,720 --> 01:38:51,400 I'm sorry. 860 01:38:51,540 --> 01:38:54,060 I wish I could be more helpful. 861 01:38:55,840 --> 01:38:56,400 Okay. 862 01:38:57,040 --> 01:38:57,480 Thank you. 863 01:39:02,030 --> 01:39:04,550 There is one more thing I have to ask. 864 01:39:07,390 --> 01:39:07,950 What? 865 01:39:10,400 --> 01:39:16,700 Were you and Verity, by chance, working on the new Noble Virtues book? 866 01:39:22,640 --> 01:39:23,200 Perhaps. 867 01:39:24,960 --> 01:39:25,380 I'm sorry. 868 01:39:26,220 --> 01:39:27,260 I'm such a fan. 869 01:39:28,880 --> 01:39:30,720 I've been waiting so long for this one. 870 01:39:33,960 --> 01:39:35,000 Don't worry. 871 01:39:39,030 --> 01:39:40,950 It'll be the best one yet. 872 01:40:30,960 --> 01:40:31,300 Hello? 873 01:40:31,300 --> 01:40:33,120 Hey, good morning, sunshine. 874 01:40:34,440 --> 01:40:35,620 Happy moving day. 875 01:40:35,960 --> 01:40:36,720 Thank you. 876 01:40:37,380 --> 01:40:38,460 I just got here. 877 01:40:38,640 --> 01:40:38,820 Hi. 878 01:40:39,180 --> 01:40:41,120 Jeremy and crew are almost ready to go. 879 01:40:41,820 --> 01:40:42,760 I came to pick you up. 880 01:40:43,240 --> 01:40:47,460 I should have approved the outline for the next book, so you are good to start writing. 881 01:40:47,700 --> 01:40:48,460 Oh, wonderful. 882 01:40:49,760 --> 01:40:52,840 But I'm actually going to need you to ask them for an extension. 883 01:40:53,600 --> 01:40:54,560 I can ask. 884 01:40:54,860 --> 01:40:55,220 Okay. 885 01:40:56,220 --> 01:40:57,220 Talk to you soon. 886 01:41:04,980 --> 01:41:06,320 Oh my God, I missed you. 887 01:41:07,820 --> 01:41:08,300 Hi. 888 01:41:08,720 --> 01:41:08,940 Hi. 889 01:41:09,660 --> 01:41:10,780 I have something. 890 01:41:11,220 --> 01:41:11,500 What? 891 01:41:11,620 --> 01:41:12,260 I have a thing. 892 01:41:12,520 --> 01:41:12,840 Okay. 893 01:41:13,080 --> 01:41:13,440 What is it? 894 01:41:13,480 --> 01:41:13,780 Close your eyes. 895 01:41:14,460 --> 01:41:15,320 Close my eyes? 896 01:41:15,460 --> 01:41:15,980 Close your eyes. 897 01:41:16,500 --> 01:41:16,720 Okay. 898 01:41:17,320 --> 01:41:18,460 Put them here like this. 899 01:41:18,720 --> 01:41:19,180 Don't move. 900 01:41:19,400 --> 01:41:19,660 Okay. 901 01:41:24,080 --> 01:41:24,560 Okay. 902 01:41:24,660 --> 01:41:25,220 Should I keep reading? 903 01:41:25,360 --> 01:41:25,620 Yeah. 904 01:41:25,880 --> 01:41:26,180 Okay. 905 01:41:30,760 --> 01:41:31,540 It's amazing. 906 01:41:32,120 --> 01:41:33,340 It's an advanced copy. 907 01:41:33,340 --> 01:41:35,200 You're the first to have it in your hands. 908 01:41:35,340 --> 01:41:36,700 I can't wait to read it. 909 01:41:37,040 --> 01:41:37,680 That's me. 910 01:41:38,540 --> 01:41:39,020 Yeah. 911 01:41:39,540 --> 01:41:39,900 Yeah. 912 01:41:41,500 --> 01:41:42,700 I'm so proud of you. 913 01:41:43,180 --> 01:41:43,980 You did it. 914 01:41:44,180 --> 01:41:44,620 We did. 915 01:41:47,900 --> 01:41:48,380 Mama! 916 01:41:49,680 --> 01:41:50,160 Hi. 917 01:41:51,240 --> 01:41:51,720 Hey. 918 01:41:52,540 --> 01:41:54,040 Be careful with your little sister. 919 01:41:54,320 --> 01:41:54,980 He's okay. 920 01:41:56,360 --> 01:41:56,840 Hi. 921 01:41:57,300 --> 01:41:58,560 I'm so happy to see you. 922 01:41:58,580 --> 01:41:59,160 I missed you. 923 01:41:59,760 --> 01:42:01,080 Are you excited for our next adventure? 924 01:42:01,080 --> 01:42:04,660 It's a really long drive to Southport, North Carolina. 925 01:42:05,120 --> 01:42:05,220 Yay! 926 01:42:05,660 --> 01:42:06,260 Yay! 927 01:42:06,400 --> 01:42:06,640 Okay. 928 01:42:06,780 --> 01:42:07,360 Let's go. 929 01:42:07,740 --> 01:42:08,680 Do you want to say goodbye to your room? 930 01:42:09,500 --> 01:42:10,240 Oh, my pictures. 931 01:42:10,940 --> 01:42:11,700 What pictures? 932 01:42:12,780 --> 01:42:13,060 Crew. 933 01:42:23,590 --> 01:42:24,170 Let's go. 934 01:42:24,790 --> 01:42:25,070 Let's go. 935 01:42:27,710 --> 01:42:29,430 Don't scare me like that. 936 01:42:30,250 --> 01:42:31,070 What are you doing? 937 01:42:31,610 --> 01:42:32,430 I got my pictures. 938 01:42:32,930 --> 01:42:33,170 See? 939 01:42:34,470 --> 01:42:35,870 Where did you get these? 940 01:42:36,710 --> 01:42:38,870 From my secret hiding place. 941 01:42:38,870 --> 01:42:40,690 Can't tell you where you can't tell. 942 01:42:40,990 --> 01:42:42,210 You better tell me where it is. 943 01:42:42,370 --> 01:42:43,790 You better tell me where it is right now. 944 01:42:45,650 --> 01:42:49,030 Why don't you go wait outside, and I'll be there in a second. 945 01:43:22,490 --> 01:43:28,250 Dear Jeremy, If you're reading this letter, it means that Crew and I are somewhere safe. 946 01:43:29,290 --> 01:43:35,350 As much as I try to forget where it all started to go wrong, I was cursed with this mind. 947 01:43:36,770 --> 01:43:39,070 That never forgets a sequel thing. 948 01:43:41,050 --> 01:43:42,570 It was at dinner with Amanda. 949 01:43:44,070 --> 01:43:45,770 I was discussing my next novel. 950 01:43:46,910 --> 01:43:52,390 I don't know if you tuned this part of the conversation out, but I'm guessing you did, because writer talk always bored you. 951 01:43:53,650 --> 01:44:00,090 That's when she told me to try an exercise she called antagonistic journaling. 952 01:44:00,670 --> 01:44:05,710 It's a writing exercise I guarantee will help get into the mind of an evil character. 953 01:44:05,710 --> 01:44:15,650 You start by writing a journal of your life, except you flip your inner dialogue to the opposite of what you were thinking on the day, the opposite of who you are. 954 01:44:16,570 --> 01:44:17,350 Try it. 955 01:44:17,650 --> 01:44:21,850 Write a journal of your daily life, and layer in sinister inner dialogue. 956 01:44:23,010 --> 01:44:26,310 To be the evil, twisted self-serving... 957 01:44:26,310 --> 01:44:26,930 Sure. 958 01:44:28,330 --> 01:44:29,070 Buckle up. 959 01:44:30,090 --> 01:44:31,230 It's really simple. 960 01:44:31,790 --> 01:44:32,350 Harmless. 961 01:44:33,050 --> 01:44:37,030 I got better and better at being inside the mind of a villain. 962 01:44:37,710 --> 01:44:39,010 It was exhilarating. 963 01:44:39,650 --> 01:44:40,290 And it helped. 964 01:44:40,770 --> 01:44:48,150 It helped immensely, which is why I was able to create such realistic, terrifying characters in my novels. 965 01:44:48,910 --> 01:44:50,130 It's why they sold. 966 01:44:50,810 --> 01:44:52,450 Because I was good at it. 967 01:44:53,930 --> 01:44:58,410 After Harper's death, my mind was in such a dark space. 968 01:44:59,550 --> 01:45:02,470 I was trying anything I could to help me process. 969 01:45:03,510 --> 01:45:08,790 Every day, pushing would make my writing more jarring, more disturbing. 970 01:45:13,500 --> 01:45:14,760 And then the day came. 971 01:45:16,280 --> 01:45:24,120 I left the file open on the computer, and you read it. 972 01:45:28,140 --> 01:45:29,940 But it was just an exercise. 973 01:45:31,960 --> 01:45:32,780 It was real. 974 01:45:35,610 --> 01:45:38,630 You haven't read anything of mine in so long. 975 01:45:41,580 --> 01:45:47,760 After all those years of marriage, how could you, even for one second, believe any of that manuscript to be true? 976 01:45:47,900 --> 01:45:49,340 I mean, seriously, Jeremy. 977 01:45:50,560 --> 01:45:52,260 Do you know me at all? 978 01:45:53,960 --> 01:45:59,000 Every memory we had ever had as a family was erased with every new word of the manuscript that you had read. 979 01:45:59,300 --> 01:45:59,740 Gone. 980 01:46:00,120 --> 01:46:01,960 There's nothing left inside you but hatred. 981 01:46:11,641 --> 01:46:14,000 I'll never forget the look on your face as you stood there and looked 982 01:46:14,000 --> 01:46:14,360 at me. 983 01:46:14,600 --> 01:46:17,100 It was complete and utter misery. 984 01:46:27,370 --> 01:46:27,850 All dizzy. 985 01:46:43,670 --> 01:46:45,050 All I saw were trees. 986 01:46:45,370 --> 01:46:47,370 And in that moment, I knew what you were doing. 987 01:46:48,270 --> 01:46:51,770 You were going to kill me and make my death look like an accident. 988 01:46:52,210 --> 01:46:56,830 I had unknowingly written my own death into the last two sentences of my manuscript. 989 01:47:49,590 --> 01:47:50,210 Did it, Jeremy? 990 01:47:57,810 --> 01:48:00,010 So, I made a plan. 991 01:48:00,010 --> 01:48:05,470 I knew you wouldn't believe me if I tried to deny that manuscript. 992 01:48:08,580 --> 01:48:15,630 And if you are aware that I have recovered, please, refinish the job yourself. 993 01:48:18,910 --> 01:48:22,530 I needed to escape and take Kru with me. 994 01:48:29,020 --> 01:48:32,240 Sharing so many memories together makes me ache for you. 995 01:48:39,730 --> 01:48:43,230 Everything I've done from the day I woke up has been for Kru. 996 01:48:43,730 --> 01:48:45,770 My Kru. 997 01:48:48,600 --> 01:48:50,540 He's the only one who knows I'm still in here. 998 01:48:51,120 --> 01:48:56,278 I still have thoughts and a voice in me. 999 01:49:26,620 --> 01:49:27,160 Are you sure? 1000 01:49:28,120 --> 01:49:31,840 It's just a weird emotion all day. 1001 01:49:38,010 --> 01:49:47,740 Yeah, I know it. 1002 01:49:48,520 --> 01:49:49,040 Okay. 1003 01:49:49,960 --> 01:49:51,260 I'm going to get into the city for dinner. 1004 01:49:52,060 --> 01:49:53,700 Yeah, I'll be there in a second. 1005 01:49:53,820 --> 01:49:55,140 I'm just going to do one last sweep. 1006 01:50:54,780 --> 01:50:55,760 The truth. 1007 01:50:58,480 --> 01:51:02,980 The only question that remains is which truth was she manipulating? 1008 01:51:21,340 --> 01:51:25,620 So, each novel in your series is based on nine moral and ethical guidelines. 1009 01:51:25,940 --> 01:51:28,560 Which of those themes was the most fun to corrupt? 1010 01:51:30,420 --> 01:51:30,940 Truth. 1011 01:51:31,900 --> 01:51:34,040 And I wanted to see how far you could push it.